From 2009 to 2014, I grew from 19 to 22. From the fat girl who was sensitive and self-abased at the beginning to the girl who was still sensitive and self-abased but not so fat. It took nearly five years. Some things have not changed, for example, I am still the original one. But some things have really changed. Someone once told me that you are always so quiet, which makes people feel uncomfortable. In fact, I am not a quiet child. I have a sentimental and overthinking heart. I think every fat man has a sensitive heart. Besides, he is still a fat man who has experienced so many gossips. I remember someone once joked with me: Li Danyang, others need money for singing, but you are dying for singing! In fact, my singing is really good. At that time, I knew that most of what they said was because I was fat. Most boys like beautiful and spoiled girls. Two people always stick together like glue. But I know I am not that kind of girl. Even though my weight is falling day by day. But I know I won’t become such a girl that boys like. Dad once comforted me: Dad is a man, and he knows what kind of girl a man likes. However, WHO stipulates that girls must become what the public men like. My best friend once said to me: Li Danyang, you are a kind of love! In fact, I am not in love, because I have never been in love. Maybe I think he said that just because I have rich imagination and developed lacrimal gland. Anita Mui and Leslie Cheung are good friends of peng. Anita Mui once half joked to Leslie Cheung: If I were 40 years old, I would not marry you, and I would not marry you. Then how about getting married. When I was young, I once imagined that the so-called love was just someone holding your hand. She also admired Xiaoyan who was busy talking about her partner in junior high school. The reason why I admired her was very simple at that time. It was just because when I quarreled with him, he had a friend who could be called a boyfriend and helped her deal with me. Even so, when I was young, I really thought it was a good thing to have a boy willing to vent his anger on you. But I knew that I had always been a good boy. A good boy could not fall in love early, so I continued to play the role of a good boy in my parents’ eyes. In fact, is it a good boy? Shaking his head, I really don’t know. A friend once sought and taught me: Mr. Li, can you study hard? Why are you more active and backward. But I said plausibly: adolescent rebellion and innocence. In fact, I am already 22 years old, and 16 years old is already far away from me. Or my adolescence is a bit long. But what on earth is right? When I was in junior high school, there was a boy whose name was listed in the class. He once secretly liked me. He was a child who didn’t like learning, but he had studied for two months for my unprecedented efforts, but he failed because of waiting. And chose to be hostile to me. I remember I hated him at that time. Love that my child really never understands. Maybe love can be written, and most people can understand it at a glance. But it is not easy to be perceived in real life. Thinking of that child, I think the initial love is like a family wine of a child. They are made up by others, perhaps because there is the same master in the name. It is hard to be described as a pair of copper locks. Look, this is just about the initial love, now think about it, about youth, what reason do I have to choose not to forgive. Youth is good or bad, happy or sad. All accompanied me through a period of quiet time. Envy Anita Mui, no matter what the end is. There is always a promise waiting for her. In fact, I also want someone who is willing to make such a promise with me, Dandan. If you can’t get married at the age of 30, will I marry you? In that case, I will definitely take a reassurance and settle down for a long time. Now I feel that marrying someone is not marriage. Not lao lao liu liu life. Why not take a stable road. What is love/? Since there is love in this world? Why are there so many quarrels? In this world, how much love is lost to waiting, how much love is lost to inferiority. It’s just the same thing that people live for a lifetime. The gap is that some people live a healthy life, and some people are in a hurry all their lives. In life, why not let yourself live a little naughty and casual. In that case, will it be very happy? People who are not casual will write these words in a mess, while people who are casual will not think about it. Since they do not think about it, they will not moan without illness. People will really change. I guess whether I will dye my red hair in the future and suddenly make a big change. I remember when I was young, I thought boys were gentle and comely. White shirt. Jeans. ‘S cute. It is better to have a hint of melancholy, which is unrealistic as the fantasy of youth. I also met such a boy passing by. Now I think about it, how can he rely on such a sad and negative boy? Because I have grown up now, because I know that my youth will eventually pass away, because I know that there is still a long way to go in the future. Therefore, we need to change ourselves more. Maybe turn around silently, and one day you will find that love has come. Where are you in the future?

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