Li Bai has a written title called my Ben Chu madman. After thinking for a moment, I felt that I was a madman. I have neither received any higher education nor a job, but it is irrelevant to talk about it. Those who know me think this is the case. Those who don’t know me think I am madman. But few people know me in the end, so the madman is very suitable for I am. In the early Western Jin Dynasty, Sima brothers ruled the extremely vicious network for their own autocracy. I thought it was useless for many literati and officialdom at that time. It is playing ancient people’s games. Now through my own feelings, I know that this is not a game, but a kind of gathering and ruling of literati thoughts. That is to say, literati can not write freely from now on. This is a blow to me. My family is a small water village, where I live, everything I have is also Bohemian. Now someone wants me to write words to be restrained. I think the sky is filled with the atmosphere of terrorism. In fact, it is not easy for people to live in the world. Whether you are good or not is up to everyone. How can I say that is just free speech. In the American election, the new president also had many opponents in the just election. Are these opponents punished? However, if someone in China expresses his own ideas, you will be treated unhumanly. Feudal society some say, Prime Minister which goes to punt. Now I understand that such a prime minister is already a history in China. Now such a person does not exist. After all, I know the prime minister’s mind from my experience. Really jealous! It is not without reason to think carefully that Americans can be so strong. It is not strange that Chinese people’s tired faces are always red and cannot catch up with others. Sometimes when I think about it, I am treated like this after saying a few words of truth. If someone really does something, there is only one result: being beheaded. I thought about it carefully. In fact, I am an illiterate. A street youth without culture. To be more straightforward, I am a local ruffian. I think it is very puzzling for such a person to ask him to do so. There are so many Chinese universities and talents. You don’t put them in an important position, but come to me for trouble. What do you mean? You swear that college students are good, but now you don’t need college students to ask me what to do. Are you denying your own behavior? As far as I know myself, I can only care about myself. Even speaking, I feel tired and my face turns red. I think I will die soon if I care about others. I enjoyed being alone. You told me to cooperate. I like to code my own words. You insist on me like this. Aren’t you human? You can support millions of troops, but you have no confidence. I don’t know who you are. I think everything I do today is a disaster caused by my mouth. I didn’t go to college, I didn’t catch up with the good treatment, and all the benefits were taken away by others. I only have to wander in the society. You want me to do this and that, I am almost dead, you can’t see. This society is really terrible. I think it is not the beginning of education in China. You put them in such an important position. Now you are looking for me as an illiterate. I don’t know what you think. My writing level was killed in the bud just at the beginning. I can only say that you are awesome. I have written so many words. Cost a little no. I don’t care. But are you only worth that little money? Considering that a country is so big, a constitution is so thick, but it is just a dead letter, which is put on the shelf. So what is China’s present and future? Needless to say, it is clear where the problem lies. The great Qin Empire was released several years ago. Shang Yang’s reform is still in my mind. Think about Shang Yang who died of a car split, and he could not blame anyone or him. What blame? I think it may be interests that cause trouble. In foreign countries, some people want to do things and have the ability to do things. Those people will have good and generous treatment. In China, such people will be put into prison. It can be seen that those who are capable do not get good treatment, even the ordinary people do not get the treatment at least, while those ordinary people get a lot naturally. No wonder it is like this now. So I don’t know what the future will be! I am either a person who is wherever I go, so simple. It is not a person born wherever he grows. Think that peace has nothing to do with me, and others have nothing to do with me. What is the most important thing in this society. It is unimaginable to think about my previous experiences. However, looking back at others’ correct reactions and attitudes towards themselves, I am really eager! Tao Qian ran to the shelter to plant Chrysanthemum and live a leisurely life, which was not incorrect. I also want that. But it is impossible now. I am really tired of living. I did not build the Republic, nor am I his builder. How can its tomorrow have anything to do with me? If one day the Japanese came to my doorstep, I would fight with him to protect my hometown. But now I can only write some articles. After all, I don’t want to do that thing. If you let me do it, even if I do it, I won’t do it well. Of course, the current society does not need me. I am a living. I just woke up from my sleep, thinking of what happened in my dream, I wrote these words. Anyway, it is my speech, not mine. You look. But fortunately, when I woke up, there were no invaders around me. So I am lucky that Archimedean was killed. I am still alive. Still in that sentence, I live in the world and have not received a good education. Those civilized people, put away the rules and disciplines you asked me. Now is Spring. The scenery outside is very good. It is really good for me to see those green grass. Even if the leaves are pinched, they will be reborn soon. I really want to make a grass. Free. People in the society are all very moral and aboveboard, but that’s theirs. I just want to be a normal person, an ordinary person. I don’t want to be a fairy. That’s what the madman said. You understand the best, and it doesn’t matter if you don’t understand. I live on a carefree island. I came out to survive. I think why Robinson is not me? People are too complicated. A capable person must bow his head like a believer begging to God. People who have no ability can live like immortals. I don’t know what country China is.
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