I have been forced to retreat my sadness again and again, and I am thinking about it again. I like the warm quilt with the smell of skin. The sense of security is thick. I like the bangs covering my eyes. No one can see my mood. My crazy and evil heart goes the Arctic leap in the South Pole I like to fall into the memory and can’t climb out and then be sentenced to death by time. I am unforgettable. I have been separated from life and death. I have been betrayed and split. I have been happy. I have had the determination to die. There looking back, cunning, narrow-minded, naked hurt, so many can’t go back. I have many people I like. Really, I only love you. A real soul has no fixed place. You are my city, but not mine. The sun is desperate. With great fanfare, the bright sunshine is shining, the silent curtain, the hot gold frame of the drama, can’t see my helplessness. I can fall in love at first sight. I can throw all my life out for anyone. I can write warm words for you. I have painted a thousand kinds of things about the future in my mind secretly for you. I want to tell you the most touching love words in the world, even though you can turn a deaf ear to it. I thought you could save me from the boundless loneliness. I thought I could love the world more with you. It’s just that I made a fatal mistake. I forgot that you are not mine. I forgot love is not that you can do whatever you want in the name of love as long as you have love. Because you can be forgiven and do what you think is right under the banner of love. After all, it is water Moon Mirror flowers living in different worlds. You can live without me. I can’t. No matter how sad your heart is, you can still do it. Without me, but I am different from you. I am would rather do nothing than leave me thinking about you, thinking about you unconsciously and wanting to shed tears. You are as helpless as me. Whenever I think of this, I am embezzling the power that burns my life. Go on and use the courage accumulated again and again to tell you to give up, but after hearing what you said, I love you, I feel sad about those tangled thoughts, those words that can’t be said or asked it doesn’t matter if you take a word so easily. I’m not forgiving you, not indulging you, not praying for your sympathy. I am really reluctant. What a terrible person I want to I am. Am I so neurotic and extreme? Gentle and not excellent I don’t care about people even don’t know how to love someone no one likes the real me no one needs me but you don’t know how much I love you lose to your heart don’t know how to be a good love please if you give it back to me, I can’t make myself cheap. I can’t make myself humble in front of anyone. I am the most proud of face, so I don’t care about anything. You are nothing. You are not worth mentioning. You are nothing. I don’t need to ask anyone for help. Smile to anyone. Coquetry to anyone. Compromise to anyone. Pretend that I can give you freedom. Anyway, this kind of thing is originally used regret, isn’t it? It’s so funny that we are so muddled and hard to hurt each other and do well, bad, worthy, unworthy, anything stinging breath, lost yourself, don’t calm down, don’t be afraid of me I lost my temper. I ‘d rather just argue. I can apologize and eat each other. It’s like two trapped beasts. At least it can prove that you are still there. You see, we are stagnant. What we consume our feelings left is burning skin. The intermittent tears make people increasingly doubt whether it is necessary to continue. In fact, you have no idea how stupid and ridiculous your self-righteous love is in the eyes of people who don’t love you. Cold Tsingtao beer is the sexiest thing in summer. It is strange that I am not drunk since I was a child, even if I feel uncomfortable, I will be extremely sober. It is very good. I feel that it is as strong and vigorous as witnessing my own death. The pain makes me shiver. I why can’t you ignite your feelings.

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Since my son entered junior high school, I began to let him stay. At the beginning of the two weeks, I felt very relaxed: I was free, and saved the daily care of my son. I could go shopping, watch TV, playing computer and so on has been a dream for many years! My eldest son has always been close to him since he was a child. He goes with him every day when he goes to and after school. My son stayed, and suddenly he only came back once a week. After a period of time, I began to feel something was wrong. I always felt empty around me and began to feel that I had nothing to do when I got home, I will miss my son very much. Sometimes I worry about whether my son will get used to living in school, have enough food, and get along well with classmates? He would make himself tremble involuntarily, thinking about going to see him, but he was afraid that going to see him would affect his study. In this way, I came to grade 3 in the ambivalence struggle. Gradually, the senior high school entrance examination was approaching, and seeing the surrounding children began to go to school again, I also considered to let my son go to school. After getting my son’s consent, in the last semester of junior three, my son also joined the army of day-to-day education, and I also became a member of accompanying students. During the days of accompanying my son through the senior high school entrance examination, some things left a deep memory. One day I had a whim, why not record these little things with my son? This can be left for many years to see. So I began to record the life of passing the senior high school entrance examination with my son. (1) Should children be allowed to manage their own money from a donation? I watched the charity sale donation activity of the video “Grateful Heart has you and me” during the day, which was very touching. This reminds me of a letter to parents that my son took back some time ago, saying that there was an eighth grade student in his school who had blood cancer and wanted everyone to show their love. At that time, I signed it and told my son that we should donate at least 50 yuan. I just said it, and later I forgot, because my son didn’t have to pay him if he had money. Since primary school, we have given his son pocket money, which can help him learn to deal with unexpected expenses: for example, when rubber, pencil, red scarf and so on are missing for a while, he can buy them himself to make up, even he is hungry, can buy something to eat. Although he was given change to let him control it freely, he never spent money arbitrarily, and even saved a lot. Sometimes when he saw something expensive, he wanted it very much, but when he thought about buying something that was of little use, he finally couldn’t bear it. Because the money had to be taken out from him. Although it was not earned by himself, he would feel distressed when seeing the money gradually decreased, so he could control the temptation. By the time he went to junior high school, he was allowed to keep the lucky money of several thousand yuan every year. He just told us all the expenses in school, and asked me to sign some of them if they needed to sign. As for the money, it was all from his lucky money. I said how much money you spent and where you spent it. You have to keep an account. I found that he managed his money well. Since he went to middle school, he had been managing his own coffers in this way. So when people asked me how much money your son would spend in a semester, I really couldn’t say. In this way, he also had an economic consciousness and learned to manage money. Some parents are afraid that giving money to their children will form the habit of his or her growing up from childhood. They always spend money on their children and don’t let them spend 1.0 money. This is too tricky to do. When children have 1.0 to spend money, they will spend it immoderately. I still remember that once I organized students to go out for comprehensive practical activities. Some students didn’t have pocket money at ordinary times. At that time, his parents gave him 50 yuan, and he thought it was a lot of money, when I arrived at the place to play, I bought things regardless of the price when I saw them, but I didn’t use them enough later. There is no sense of planning to use money. Don’t give children pocket money, when children see others spend money to buy things but they don’t have money, they will think of ways to get money, and some even steal money from their families while their parents don’t pay attention. Such a thing will make people feel very sad. The most impressive example is a couple from Sichuan who rented in my house a few years ago. There is a son who is three years older than my son. They were just afraid that their children would spend money recklessly. Every morning, they stipulated that they would buy breakfast for their son with two yuan. However, when children eat breakfast outside everyday, they don’t want to eat the food at home and feel no smell. They think that the breakfast cost of two yuan per day is too little, so they need to order more points. But he saved up the money to play games after giving him more money, and his parents became more and more controlled to give him money after knowing that they had beaten him severely, he went to those students with good family conditions but poor study in his classes to help them do things and ask them to eat and drink. Indeed, this child is very smart. He was in grade 3 when he came to live in my home. He lived in my home and went back to his hometown to go to middle school after graduating from primary school. In these four years, the most heartbreaking thing was that he was severely beaten by his parents. I remember that winter when the child was stripped of only one pair of shorts, he was locked out of the door by his father’s belt which made him blue and purple. The reason he asked was that he stole nearly 300 yuan from his father to eat, drink and play games. And the unused money was said to be hidden under the stones behind the house, but it was impossible to find it. It was estimated that what he said was a lie, which might be that he had used up all the money. His study was originally very good, but later he often thought that eating, drinking and having fun would decline. However, he gave full play to his intelligence and gradually became the leader of those poor students. Every weekend, he secretly escaped to let the poor rich students invite him to have fun. He went back to his hometown to attend boarding class in middle school, and his parents hoped that he could get better in the bitter environment of his hometown. Later, I asked his father how his children studied in his hometown? His father said: fortune tellers have already said that my son is not the material for school. Of course, this child is a special case. The growth of a child has a lot to do with the environment he contacts and the friends he makes. But his parents were also very important to his education since his childhood. Let him know what can be done with the money and what can not be done blindly, and let him learn a clear sense from childhood. We never restrict our son economically. I have also discussed with a mother that she said that she should control the children in the aspect of economy, so that when the children want to buy something, they will ask for you, at this time, he will be submissive when you ask him for learning. I also asked my son, if he took away his lucky money, let him use it and then make it better for us. He said it was not good, then he would not be free. When buying things, the money is paid from him, and his coffers will be reduced a little every time he pays a little. Seeing that it was a waste of money to buy some expensive and impractical things, he would feel distressed once or twice and his money bag would become more and more flat. Later, he himself could control the temptation. I also thought it was good to let him manage the money by himself, so he was unwilling to control him economically. I remember that when I was young, everyone was poor at that time. It was very difficult to ask parents for money if they wanted to buy books. The feeling of longing for money was really too uncomfortable. Because of my own experience, I would not control my son’s economy. However, many people think that I am indulging my children in this way, which will make children develop the habit of spending money freely. But so far, I think it is very good. When many parents gather together to talk about their children, I obviously feel that my son is indeed better than other children in economic awareness. I don’t know whether it is the advantage of letting him manage money by himself or the nature of his son. Maybe there are both! But I think it’s good to let him manage his own economy since childhood. I remember once my son came back and told me unhappy: Mom, I seem to find that my money is 100 yuan less. I said less is less. This is also a lesson. It is not safe for you to bring less cash to your body in the future. After losing money, he put less cash in his schoolbag. I saw that he usually put several hundred yuan of cash in his wallet, and later I knew that he paid 100 yuan on the meal card a week, unlike others who paid several hundred yuan at a time. I said that if you don’t work well, you can put hundreds of money on the card to save money every week. He said if the meal card is lost, will the loss be too big? He did this very carefully. Every time I go to school, I remind him whether he has some money. The pocket money on his body can’t be less. Sometimes he needs to buy school supplies such as refills and correction tapes. I told him that he should be prepared for danger. When I received my son’s donation in the evening, I asked him if he had donated it. He said he donated. I asked him how much he donated. At the beginning, he said weakly: I was going to donate ten yuan, but I didn’t have any change, so I donated 100 yuan. I guess he was afraid that I didn’t agree with him to donate so much and his voice was very low. I heard that he donated 100 yuan, and I was very happy to say: Yes, it should be like this. When we have the ability to help others, we should help. Hearing this, my son was very happy and immediately got a smile on his face. I guess it was my son who felt that his mother could support him, which made him feel that his heart was dependent. The silent son also became more talkative, telling me about the medical examination tomorrow. The teacher asked them to come back to take a bath, as well as those who are too thin or too fat can lower their requirements and so on. I haven’t seen my son so happy for a long time, and this evening my son is also unprecedentedly serious. To be honest, I was really happy to see my son have such a warm heart. I think moral character is the most important thing for us to cultivate a child. If we have good grades and bad moral character, we will become the scumbag of the society. Besides, I also feel the justice action to support the child from this matter, so that he will feel that his parents are his strong backing, and then he will have more motivation to learn.

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