I didn’t open this page for a long time, even if it was fragmentary, all the trifles were kept in my mind, because it was the quietest corner and the softest place. I haven’t opened any book that I like after graduation for a long time. I don’t forget or don’t want to, but what life gives is more in this quiet city, not too many complicated troubles, but through everything big and small after graduation, I saw all my weaknesses, just like a sesame cake, burnt and rotated, finally, it fell into the cold plate. I still remember clearly that in August, all the pain of choice, like the cold wind, which invaded the thin body and every inch of skin, seemed to be able to feel the heart-wrenching pain. Those days were tough. Xiao Jiao said, the downturn of life would always pass. I also told myself optimistically that it would pass. It was the first time I walked out of campus and met the worst road I thought, On every way back, I called my best friend to seek comfort. Most of the time I was so sad that I wanted to cry. I also thought about many impossibilities in my life every midnight. When it came to the most difficult time, I would hate the weak choice very much. The yearning at that time was a long journey dream, but the person who was strangled in the cradle was exactly myself, not others, but also many times, I also blame the people around me. I think selfishly that it was they who blocked my progress, and it was these that made me stand at the crossroads and indecisive. All the complaints, because this road go not too flat, all give up, is because of the heart afraid at work. But for this city, I can’t hate it at all. This is the cleanest city I have ever lived in. If you like it, you can eat a bowl of delicious hot and sour powder for 5 yuan, you can buy a bowl of bait Silk as breakfast for three yuan, and rent a spacious and clean house for two hundred yuan. Maybe this is for people like us, the reason why the single pursuit of life needs the favorite level. More likely, in the words of my school days, if you like someone, you will fall in love with this city. In a few months, I have tried hard to take an examination of public institutions and want a more stable job. Maybe I think that kind of life is free from worries and glamorous, so I yearn for my deskmate in high school, there are also people who try their best to read books and take exams. However, if you do not pay for some efforts, you will certainly get something. The road of examination started from primary school when thousands of troops crossed the bridge. Those who stepped on the past were even heroes. They had experienced many examinations in their whole life, and they didn’t care if they failed or succeeded. Only this time, they cared too much, therefore, the moment of disappointment is a kind of unspeakable sadness. During that time, the sudden depression made me want to go crazy, which was more of a kind of similar sad despair and confusion to life. All the confusion, helplessness and indifference occupied most of the space of life. Therefore, at that time, I was so irritable that I would yell at the people around me. All the happiness and unhappiness were controlled by the mood at that time, there were many times to vent at Achang. He said he was tired, so stop. Work is not the whole of life. No one asked you to do that. I cried, many times, sometimes I feel that I am just a delicate bag. I told my sister Yan Jin a lot, and every time she was so strong that she told me a lot of reasons. A junior girl was two years younger than me, but I understand the appearance of life better than I do. Step by step, it makes my sister feel warm. I said, can the agreement of the coming year be fulfilled? Can you have a gentle encounter in Lijiang in summer? Can you really share the story of summer by holding hands and stepping on the Bluestone Road that you told me I couldn’t see my head? I don’t know when to start and become the best people. You said it was because of the same past and the same reality we had to face. Maybe it was such resonance, but what is more is the feeling of mutual encouragement. Yesterday, I made a phone call with the old watch for a while, and suddenly realized that it was ten years away. Ten years ago, there were too many things that could change people. He said that ten years ago he was naughty and didn’t listen to his parents, but several years of military life tempered his personality. He said that he didn’t regret everything at that time like I was always an obedient child. In fact, no one regretted on that road, no one has ever tried hard, no one has ever complained. It’s just that along the way, parents have paid too much, which makes us who we are today. Indeed, we all sigh with emotion that if we are not always supported by our family, we may have already dragged our family to take care of ourselves. In my whole life, I have always been the most obedient child. I have made great achievements and then fulfilled my wish of loyalty and filial piety. It’s just life, but what I walk more is going against the wind. Finally, let myself be willful, brave and choose once. I still went back to the original starting point. Senior fellow apprentice said, the most important planning of life is only planned by you. On the way forward, you won’t get lost. I understand this truth, and after thinking about it for many times, I resolutely start again and face a new life again. I know that I need to lead. After four-day work training, I got to know some people from different places, ages and personalities again. I was very happy and learned from each other. I went all the way and gained a lot. I have a new understanding of the significance of this job, and I also understand that it will not be easy in the future. After stepping out, I found that maybe all the previous worries and fears seemed unnecessary. If you don’t force yourself at the critical time, you will never know how excellent you will be. From the exam to the actual combat simulation, every step should be carried out with great efforts. Although there are age differences and social differences among colleagues, they are very active and have no distractions. They have gained a lot from the guidance of regional managers, which is a platform I have never met before, I have never expanded myself. Rong Rong, who is only 18 years old, said, I am so gentle that I will have the opportunity to go to Shilin and Maitreya in the future. She will take me out for crazy fun and be active. Fortunately, I am not studying Chinese department, otherwise, I don’t even know how quiet I will be. 18 years old, what a beautiful age. When I was 18 years old, I was still preparing for the College Entrance Examination. Day and night, how could I have such a tranquil mind to face the life of the college entrance examination when I was 18 years old? So, I envied her, and she also envied me, including Liu Quan, who was the same age as me. They thought that I just graduated and studied very fast. In fact, I also had my fear, so I tried a little hard. I was afraid that I didn’t have an active character and life experience like them. I was afraid of many things. I just wanted to arm myself better, welcome the unknown difficulties in the future. Therefore, everyone is a unique scenery. When you look up at others, You are also looked up by others, and remember that we are irreplaceable on the way forward. All the way is hard, all the way is Rainbow, lose some, also get some, remember some, also forget some. No one went smoothly on the road of life, including his own future, which might be more difficult. They all prepared for the worst. Maybe the reality was not as helpless as imagined, so they also got surprises. Stepping through the world of mortals and facing all the sufferings with a peaceful and humble attitude will no longer be sufferings. Preparation, fearless, life will only suffer for a while, not for a lifetime. Stand at the beginning of clean time again and start bravely.

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